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Meanderings Hither & Thither
29 April 2008 @ 10:42 am
Further wanderings  
The Independent Study Project period began on Saturday and some of us have already departed or will be within a few hours for more distance destinations. We shared some goodbyes yesterday, one more the day before, and I woke up with the desire to see a few friends off from the airport and offer them blankets for the cool evenings on the rivers. I may still, but it may cause more tears and stresses than it is worth.

Last night, crafting a mix to send with everyone when we depart from Belem, listening to "Shelter from the Storm" and then "How Would it Be," it struck me pretty hard. The tears were cathartic and joyous in a way; I have, after all, made friends and family here that I did not expect, have fallen in love in ways other than the usual, and am afraid, too. Soon I will be returning to where I can bicycle across town, where I do not keep track of my passport, where I must clean my own dishes, where I am home and not home. It only occurred to me the other day that I have a functional Portuguese vocabulary, that I can make myself understood and often times understand others, that I no longer must be quite the dependent on everyone else around me. I don't where it came from, or really how, but I suppose certain pieces came together and now I am here.

The whole last few days have been maddening and sad. It is the prelude to our real departure, to when we break up into smaller groups and eventually dissipate altogether. Of course, we will not dissipate altogether. We plan on phone calls, mix CDs, Minnesota adventures, road trip visitations, Skype dates, and the rest, and I have no doubt that most of us will stick to them for some time. It will become irregular, but this experience has been made not just by the country, by the SIT faculty, by my host-family, but most of all by this group of new friends, this troupe of strangers that inevitably evolved into something very new and special. Conversations these days tend toward the coming goodbyes, first impressions, misleading notions from the Facebook, and supposed difficulties. Here we are, not ready to go on our own and not ready to stay, not ready to go home but interested in leaving. We are leaving each other, knowing we must, but not wanting to believe it. I remember this situation, and I feel those ripples now.
 
 
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Meanderings Hither & Thither
25 April 2008 @ 02:22 pm
Great Labors and Mild Excesses  
23 de abril de 2008, mid-day

Such is the way of the world. After a hectic week of preparation and anxiety, I am nearly ready for a trip to São Francisco do Pará where I will be for two weeks interviewing farmers and researchers. I have been busy and distracted and busy again. All the preliminary work was frustrating beyond belief, so I structured my outline and started filling in the bits and pieces. Here is what I have... )



Forgive the lack of footnotes (references), but I don’t feel like messing with it that much more. It was not impossible, but it took the real structure of the final paper to feel okay with it. Now I have some respectable position, some managed way to look at it. The last bit is a brief chat with Osvaldo Kato at Embrapa who has the power to make or break my project, but will likely simply give me some mumbled names and the like. He is supposed to point me to an advisor. Of course, he doesn’t speak English and mumbles his Portuguese, so the later afternoon could be full of fun. It will all pay off when I can hand it the rest of this obnoxious paperwork and go see “Once” with friends this evening.

The fun stuff… )
 
 
Current Music: patrick wolf & les savy fav
 
 
Meanderings Hither & Thither
22 April 2008 @ 05:52 pm
Stir Crazy  
21 de abril de 2008, later afternoon )

Shortly I will be leaving this gentle cage with Ivy to watch her play and see our friends. Wondrous!

A short story titled, 'Redes' )



I took two tests today. It was a day of finals. Soon we will get ice cream.
 
 
Meanderings Hither & Thither
11 April 2008 @ 11:31 am
Boa Viagem, Adieus, & Dreams  
Letter to Friends & Family )

11 Abril do 2008, A few journal excerpts )

This and that... )

This weekend or Monday I will post pictures. We have also made a public photo gallery, but I haven't posted anything yet. When I get that information I will be sure to post and send out emails.
 
 
Current Music: Buckley, Wainwright, and Morrison
 
 
Meanderings Hither & Thither
01 April 2008 @ 12:07 pm
Do Not Freak Out  
So, about an hour and twenty minutes ago I was robbed by a man with bad eyes, on a red bike, with a supposed knife under his shirt. He took my bus fare (which deserves a story I will shortly relay) and my host-sister's cell phone which had been given to me. (To Mom & Dad, that means I can't receive calls anymore.) I was walking with Rafael, a student from the nearby university, who whad visited my school looking for Ellie and then accompanying me to the bus stop. He approached like most people with little or no money; that is, he looked generally unwell and out of luck. He spoke with Rafael and I ignored him until he turned to me. I said "Nau se" or "I don't understand," a very important phrase, and turned away. Rafael told me blankly, "He is robbing us." I then turned back to notice he held something inside his shirt (though it could have been any thin, long object). I handed him my bus fare change purse, and then he pointed at my other pocket which clearly contained something, and he took the cell phone. After doing the same for Rafael, or perhaps he had gone first, the man biked away. I then walked the one block back to school to report it and stay for lunch (I was on my way home for lunch after getting out of class early). Everyone was pretty amazed at how calm I was afterward, just asking for the paperwork to file a theft from Gustauvo who, of course, pointed me to Gabi. I told the story a few times, but here is the most interesting part.

Two days ago I purchased a small change purse, brown like coconut husks with a frog on it, to give to someone at school. I thought to use it for bus fare in the meantime because finding change or whipping out the wallet is an awkward affair as the bus jolts forward, around corners, and stops frequently. This morning I put in some change for the bus, which I then used. Before leaving the SIT office I put R$4 ($2.40) in the purse from my wallet for the bus and then ran into Rafael. Without Rafael I would have had little to no understanding of the intentions of the thief, witohut the change purse I would have lost my bank card and likely my IDs (ISIC and maybe driver's liscense). All in all, I look at it in the light of absurdities, as I tend to do with most grave or violent incidences. I kind of want to laugh and have a little already. How strange it all is...
 
 
Meanderings Hither & Thither
27 March 2008 @ 12:03 pm
Caleb's Amazon Adventures  
Letter to Friends and Family )



Unfortunately, my camera's batteries died shortly after the trip began so I have virtually no photos of my adventures. My classmates, on the other hand, have plenty. If you are on the Facebook, they are easy to access under photos of me and the related albums. If you are not, you are welcome to bug me for photos of those and I will find alternative means to post them.
 
 
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Meanderings Hither & Thither
11 March 2008 @ 08:59 am
Good Days and Good Nights  
7 Março 2008, early evening )

8 Março 2008, evening )
 
 
Meanderings Hither & Thither
07 March 2008 @ 06:18 am
Mild Madness  
I have been waiting to wake up since it happened, since I got to minha casa and opened the balcony door to let in a breeze.  All I did was open the door, I swear and the great big pane of glass shattered over me.  I was immensely surprised but never shocked, but spent the next two years cleaning up glass, taping plastic bags over the empty space, and picking out bits of glass from off my hands and out of my hair.  The mess got everywhere and no one was mad.  I feel unable to explain my situation, partly because I am so unable to communicate what happened; I simply don't know what did happen.  First a collision of the head, then sickness, and now one of the priciest accidents in which I have ever participated.  I feel like a big clumsy, gringo monster; I bumble with words and hand gestures to explain things I don't understand in a language I don't understand.

I am waiting to wake up, still.
 
 
Meanderings Hither & Thither
06 March 2008 @ 10:58 am
 
22 February 2008, 10:49 in Belém )

25 di Feverieve 2008, late morning )

1 Março 2008 )

2 Março 2008, late night )

Also, I'll be on Skype this afternoon, before 3:00 pm Central Time.
 
 
Meanderings Hither & Thither
06 March 2008 @ 07:20 am
 
Shortly, as in later today, I will post about a week and a half or two weeks of entries.  They have been stored up in my absence of interweb availability.  I will put them behind a cut and try to have clear formatting.

love,
c
 
 
Meanderings Hither & Thither
22 February 2008 @ 07:27 am
Little new news  
My computer ran out of power and have been unable to post due to lack of internet.  If you want to keep in contact, letters may be the best way to contact me.  I will try to write and respond to emails and the like soon.  It is difficult to miss home because every day or so something new and amazing happens.  I plan on posting soon with details from the past week and will post on my facebook photos, but I don't know for sure when.

<lj-cut text="Miami and flying entries">15 February 2008, 8:00 am
 

First leg of the trip and I can’t even get off the ground.  My 6:30 am flight out of Lincoln is delayed due to mechanical concerns.  I empathize with the one woman who seems to be taking care of everything at this time that the world forgot.  I’m on about four hours of sleep, with a nap in the concourse since I’ve gotten off, and am having difficulty keeping all the details in my head straight; not tremendous difficulty, just that extra effort like waking up tired after a night of fitful sleep when you have a cold.
 

Friends.  I am thinking almost exclusively of friends while I wait here, unsure if I’ll make my connection to Miami, where I’ll stay with my mother’s friend, Marta until the next morning when they will drop me off at the airport.  “Every journey begins with the first step” comes to mind, but the steps for this journey began four years ago when I started looking for schools and these more corporeal ones are sadly convoluted and uncertain.  This is a poor way to do things.  All the time, I think about the people I have already left behind at school.  I return the day of graduation (sometime between midnight and six back in Miami, I believe) of a few dear friends, people I have the echo of a concern I won’t ever see again.  That is less true than what happened last year with graduation.

The trip has changed, now.  Later I will fly out of Omaha, through Houston, to Miami.  Dissonance, the way that everything was just out of sync, somehow in conflict without wanting to be; like disagreements between passionate people, they cover so much unfamiliar ground you leave without knowing where to go or from where you came.  Hopefully those sorts of details are figured out by the end of the day.  For now, I wait for my luggage, my mother (who will provide a ride), and a meal.


About midnight

 

And thus ends the first day of the expedition, my great, lone excursion into the world ends late in the evening with a stressful side quest through Houston, Texas.  Here I am, in Miami and fed before going to bed and waking for the first time in years next to an ocean.  On the taxicab ride from the airport I almost began to laugh, considering that I am here, prepared to leave for Belém, Brasil.  I laughed knowing that I have made it this far, that I have not spent any time learning any Portuguese, that a wonderful Spanish family friend made me a dinner at eleven o’clock in the evening (though I did not know that at the time), and that my day had started at before God woke in another time zone.  (His absence is my reasoning for the plane not functioning in the first place, that and Lincoln being ill-prepared to see me go.)  Friends and family have heard bits and pieces of the trek thus far, but I am happy that no one else had to undergo it.  My mother, though, likely suffered as much anxiety about my misadventure than I did, though she did not have to cramp herself into airplane seats.

 

Brief overview:

4:30 – Designated time of required waking to prepare for drive to airport, all luggage is packed and waiting in my mother’s new Jeep

5:30 – Arrival and checked luggage at airport

6:00 – Loading of airplane

6:10 – Explanation of mechanical problems (wing spoiler is fixed on, creating drag that would prevent liftoff), exodus of plane for terminal

7:00 – The mention of wait for mechanics to fix plane

8:00 – Rescheduling of flight from Omaha, to Miami, via Houston

9:15 – Nap

12:00 – Drive to Omaha, includes mother-son sing along to “Across the Universe” soundtrack

14:25 – Flight out of Omaha to Houston

16:30 – Landing in Houston, followed by taxiing and mild freak-out that I would miss my connection

17:05 – Scheduled boarding of flight to Miami

17:30 – Actual time of boarding

21:00 (about) – Arrival in Miami

22:30 – Luggage pickup and drive to Marta’s, friend of my mother, to sleep

23:00 – Discussion with Marta, dinner, and realization that I made it to Miami

 

I am still lacking an internet connection.

 
 
Meanderings Hither & Thither
14 February 2008 @ 09:20 pm
Mailing Address  
Caleb Phillips
SIT / WL do Brasil
Tv. Piraja 1990
Entre Av. Almirante Barroso e Ab. Joao Paulo II
Marco - Belem, PA - Cep. 66095-470 - Brasil

Notice an accent on the second "a" in Piraja and second "e" in Belem.

I leave for Miami tomorrow morning, waking at 4:30.  Flight for Brasil out of Miami in forty hours and forty-five minutes.

Also, I have decided to spend most of the summer in Lincoln and am not going to Duke.
 
 
Current Location: Lincoln, Nebraska, USA
Current Music: The film, The Kingdom
 
 
Meanderings Hither & Thither
04 February 2008 @ 01:15 pm
Return  
My internship ended on Friday.  On Thursday I asked sue for an assignment because I had finished everything else and needed to work for at least four more hours.  She told me to contact some condo associations in downtown Mpls to spread the word about a special places tour.  After making a few phone calls, I learned that we had about three, four, and then five times as many people as we expected.  It turns out my work for the day was mostly for naught because it was elsewhere covered.

I also spent much of the day on Craigslist trying to find a new/used computer because my OLPC laptop will not arrive before I leave, which sucks.  The guy stood me up after I talked him down fifty bucks.  I don't think he liked me much. 

Lauren made an appearance, Anna a phone call or two, and I got to say a few hello-goodbyes by evening's end.

Saturday moved slow enough, particularly with packing finished and the electricity briefly out.  Mary drove me to the airport and vanished without much of a trace.  It could have been a dream, the way it all ended, and if I woke up I felt almost as unfamiliar with the world as when I first walked into the Friends of the Mississippi River office.

Perhaps I'll post cuts with my journal assignments behind them.  I gave the Career Center a bit of a tongue lashing.
 
 
Meanderings Hither & Thither
27 January 2008 @ 07:07 pm
adieu  
Today i left Gustavus again. Again... likely, this will be the last time i physically see certain individuals for something like eight months. Lauren and Anna, you know this already, are my anchors; without them i would float and meander, rootless and withering. The past semester has been one of the most intense, and i might be tempted to say negative, but that would be inaccurate.

Sometimes long times and long distances can be confused with forevers. A dear and confusing friend of mine remarked that she felt like her school contained circles, loops of time and space that return people and emotions and reality back to itself; self-replenishing. That sort of thing shows up everywhere. Right now i know that wherever i go, the people and places i have been will remain, if forever changing, and those i love are not going anywhere, at least not anywhere that i can't follow.

Lauren and i spoke of futures, of work and living concerns briefly. How strange to think that where i might be two years from now feels more secure than who i will be in two months. I know where i am going--through some measure of intuition or divination--but know not what i will find on the path there. Excitement and fear have never been distant for me.

I cried those slow, singular, fat tears on the shuttle back to the Twin Cities, listening to Beirut's Lon Gislan EP, thinking of how blessed i have found myself, of all the jewels i see shimmering. They were not joyful tears, but perhaps tears with a bit of wisdom, a touch of foresight; they acknowledged that for now, i'll be coming back and that i'll find people waiting for me, people that i know love me.

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Meanderings Hither & Thither
19 January 2008 @ 01:22 pm
internship  
http://www.fmr.org/news/current/welcome_winter_interns-2008-01

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Meanderings Hither & Thither
06 January 2008 @ 11:12 am
Testing...  
This is a preliminary post for my travel weblog (because "blog" is a gross word) while I am in Brazil.  It will be linked from a few different sites (the Facebook, my other journal which will not be linked from here, the Gustavus philosophy webpage) and all are welcome to comment and the like.  (Livejournal does not require an account for comments, but please leave your name so that I know who said what.)  I am in the habit of dropping capitals and other small eccentricities, so forgive me if I happen into old habits.  Also, I plan on writing somewhat regularly, so if you are interested, feel free to contact me with your address and I will try to keep up, but I trust e-mail to be a more regular and reliable means of communication.

I may post something during my internship, such as my mailing address or updates on my experiences working for Friends of the Mississippi River, since I do not leave until mid-February.  Oh, and I will be in Belém through SIT with the Amazon Resource Management and Human Ecology.
 
 
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Current Music: fugazi - the argument